January 09, 2009 @ 3:12 PM
311208, 010109
Posted by Ethan
I don't know if it's an appropriate blog to start off the year, I've pondered this over for a week, and i just wanted to share what I've encountered. Perhaps, some of you could gimme some advice. =)
On the above mentioned dates, she came to my house, as her internet connection at home was screwed up, and desperately needs to gain internet access. Twas kinda weird, cos she haven't been to my house before, even when we were together. Now that we've broke up, we seem to be closer than before. Maybe i appeared too possessive in a relationship, but i think that she have misunderstood me.
311208:
Came to my house around 1 plus, she was gaming and i was studying, until around 5 plus. I took a bath and got ready to attend the Countdown Party at my grandma's. I've invited her to the barbeque, and she readily agreed(from what I've perceived). Jerilyne was there along with her boyfriend and we played poker cards till around 8 plus, when she said that she's gotta head home(guess it's some curfew or smth, but anw, a good idea, as a girl shouldn't be staying out too late). Originally, i wanted to walk her to the bus stop, but when the bus has arrived, I was reluctant to let her leave my sight then. So, i boarded the bus along with her. It's like dejavu. When we were together, there was once I've insisted in sending her home against her will, she was unhappy. However this time, she didn't appear to be so. I was happy. I was supposed to go off right after I've sent her home, cos i had to be back at grandma's. But, this was what we ended up doing: Nobody's at her house, so i went up to take a look at her new-borned puppy( really adorable). She said she was hungry, and i accompanied her to the supermarket to purchase some snacks. We returned empty-handed when she suddenly lost her craving for food(weird 0.0). We walked past a carnival nearby her house, and decided to take a look there. From the RC member, we got hold of the procedures regaring how to make reservations for the barbeque pit nearby her house, as i was planning to organise a birthday party for her. I went back to my grandma's, and i felt kinda lonely, not being able to feel her presence. It's been so long since i missed someone, i don't know how it feels like. Perhaps, i was missing her. I don't know. On the overall, i was contented with the day, and i could sleep with a smile on my face.
010109:
Supposed to be a band gathering, but YY had to be at a chalet with her friends. Skythe tagged along and, he got drunk =.= Julian went over to oversee the matter, as she was at my house for the same reason. Before that, Julian came by my house to play monopoly, as requested by Jerilyne. Since there was a shortage of players, I was left with no choice but to join the game. She sportingly agreed to join in the game, even though she thinks it's really childish. Lol. She's more compromising than before, when we were together. I'm glad. Perhaps she was at my house, so she feel obligated to be compromising. I'm not sure. We went over to the Koufu at Rivervale Plaza, Julian headed for Skythe at sentosa, Jerilyne went out with her boyfriend. =)
We had dinner together, and i sent her to the bus stop. She said that i didn't have to wait for the bus with her. After ending her statement, the bus arrived. Maybe she was hinting that i shouldn't send her home, so i didn't board the bus. That day was really simple, maybe mundane to many. But i was joyous, as i got to see her and spend time with her.
Till date, i still have strong feelings for her. Like lyrics of the song I've written when we broke up, ' My ignited feeling for you~, had never died~'. I really don't know if she has feelings for me still. Those two days gave me hope that we could be together, but now, we seem a little drifted. Her pre-paid card was out of value( couldn't msg her), and she's not online today, couldn't really talk. I really hope to be with her still, but don't know if she'll accept me. Hope to contact her real soon, to get closer to her, to understand her more, and finally, maybe betogether with her. =)
I hope this time, it's enough to last.
Pray that God Bless this relationship, put it under Your Grace.
Ethan a.k.a Cheng Yi ~ Guitarist
I don't know if it's an appropriate blog to start off the year, I've pondered this over for a week, and i just wanted to share what I've encountered. Perhaps, some of you could gimme some advice. =)
On the above mentioned dates, she came to my house, as her internet connection at home was screwed up, and desperately needs to gain internet access. Twas kinda weird, cos she haven't been to my house before, even when we were together. Now that we've broke up, we seem to be closer than before. Maybe i appeared too possessive in a relationship, but i think that she have misunderstood me.
311208:
Came to my house around 1 plus, she was gaming and i was studying, until around 5 plus. I took a bath and got ready to attend the Countdown Party at my grandma's. I've invited her to the barbeque, and she readily agreed(from what I've perceived). Jerilyne was there along with her boyfriend and we played poker cards till around 8 plus, when she said that she's gotta head home(guess it's some curfew or smth, but anw, a good idea, as a girl shouldn't be staying out too late). Originally, i wanted to walk her to the bus stop, but when the bus has arrived, I was reluctant to let her leave my sight then. So, i boarded the bus along with her. It's like dejavu. When we were together, there was once I've insisted in sending her home against her will, she was unhappy. However this time, she didn't appear to be so. I was happy. I was supposed to go off right after I've sent her home, cos i had to be back at grandma's. But, this was what we ended up doing: Nobody's at her house, so i went up to take a look at her new-borned puppy( really adorable). She said she was hungry, and i accompanied her to the supermarket to purchase some snacks. We returned empty-handed when she suddenly lost her craving for food(weird 0.0). We walked past a carnival nearby her house, and decided to take a look there. From the RC member, we got hold of the procedures regaring how to make reservations for the barbeque pit nearby her house, as i was planning to organise a birthday party for her. I went back to my grandma's, and i felt kinda lonely, not being able to feel her presence. It's been so long since i missed someone, i don't know how it feels like. Perhaps, i was missing her. I don't know. On the overall, i was contented with the day, and i could sleep with a smile on my face.
010109:
Supposed to be a band gathering, but YY had to be at a chalet with her friends. Skythe tagged along and, he got drunk =.= Julian went over to oversee the matter, as she was at my house for the same reason. Before that, Julian came by my house to play monopoly, as requested by Jerilyne. Since there was a shortage of players, I was left with no choice but to join the game. She sportingly agreed to join in the game, even though she thinks it's really childish. Lol. She's more compromising than before, when we were together. I'm glad. Perhaps she was at my house, so she feel obligated to be compromising. I'm not sure. We went over to the Koufu at Rivervale Plaza, Julian headed for Skythe at sentosa, Jerilyne went out with her boyfriend. =)
We had dinner together, and i sent her to the bus stop. She said that i didn't have to wait for the bus with her. After ending her statement, the bus arrived. Maybe she was hinting that i shouldn't send her home, so i didn't board the bus. That day was really simple, maybe mundane to many. But i was joyous, as i got to see her and spend time with her.
Till date, i still have strong feelings for her. Like lyrics of the song I've written when we broke up, ' My ignited feeling for you~, had never died~'. I really don't know if she has feelings for me still. Those two days gave me hope that we could be together, but now, we seem a little drifted. Her pre-paid card was out of value( couldn't msg her), and she's not online today, couldn't really talk. I really hope to be with her still, but don't know if she'll accept me. Hope to contact her real soon, to get closer to her, to understand her more, and finally, maybe betogether with her. =)
I hope this time, it's enough to last.
Pray that God Bless this relationship, put it under Your Grace.
Ethan a.k.a Cheng Yi ~ Guitarist
